Continually
updated reports from Human Beings around the world who are
experimenting with their own aura mechanics and strategy through the
Human Design System. These are ongoing dialogues with many whom are finding their own truth through this information. These report pages seem to be taking on a life of their own.....
A Manifestor from S California see's the whole movie and declares her independence: Woke up around 4am and the SECOND, John, I mean the very
second I opened my eyes my mind was in full tilt Attack Mode....Strong at me
"You CAN'T leave. You CAN'T go ANYwhere. You HAVE to stay
HERE.".......fear, bullshit. I didn't even have any Time to
ruminate - it just attacked me.....I recognized it after like 30 seconds, took
a deep breathe and it left.....man. I GET the reference now...oh
yeah...I get it now. Now I'm being hunted by effing ringwraiths via
my mind. Okay then. Fine. Bring it. Game ON..........And So It Begins
A Projector starts to "see": through
visiting with my friend, I was able to see how I have been outright lying to
myself about what is true for me!!! I didn't go into the night looking for
that, but it happened. And it's so strange. This morning it just really
occurred to me that I had this "buffer" around me to keep me from
being completely real to my true self. Kind of constructing the truth, instead
of accepting the truth in the now. Which is so fucking crazy!!! (In fact, I
kinda feel a bit crazy today - in that I can see my bullshit and the truth
about certain relationships real up close and honestly.)
A friend sees it for themselves: WOW. Quantam
Craziness! Stuff is starting to happen...my body feels stronger and
more dense, more aware. I still have the intermittant wraith attack
though, and I'm starting to get angry at my whining whining mind....like SHUT
UP!!! you ..pathETic...NEEDY parasite! People around me are all of
a sudden treating me differently....very weird.
Canadian Projector Blues ...feeling
torn these days as i really just don't want to work anymore...well,
less any ways but caught in my own promise to myself with financial
completions. The next 10 months will complete the mortgage which will
free me up alot...and hubby stil anticipates success with his project
so i may be freer sooner. In the meantime, it is a manageable level of
output, some time to study...and lots of time alone which i love.
Frequency of Will....what
a rollercoaster this is........going from feeling completely Magnificent!! and
Free!!!... to an insecure mess. An interesting and adventurous process,
this "Fighting for ME."
I had a relentless Fear painbody I worked
with....Wow! can't wait to talk w/ you about that ---very different from
before.
I'm really starting to hear my will - in the frequency of my
voice, as you pointed out before. I feel stronger much stronger....Everyday
- a New Adventure....often fraught with insipid
fear ....but I can see now, my will can choose not to listen.
When Ken gets back from holiday, I'm expediting clearing these open centers -
there's too much I want to do and I am so so tired of being afraid of
everything......so afraid all the time.
"Where I am" by One Splenic Projector
i cannot go anyWHERE or go to anyONE for what i am seeking it is not there and i am now getting it
i have roamed the earth and i have sought the energy of others, to the point i really don't know who i am
my mind is wildly whacking out on me with this information when this realization starts sinking in:
that it has been the driver of my being
and for years, i've refused to go into the black hole of nothingness but i am reminded over and over again - after all the diversions - NO thing or NO one is going to fix this for me but me
i literally have no idea of where to go what to do who to be around just no idea guess i'm going to have to wait and see.
wait without any ideas, plans, support, fixes - nothing.
just wait and see and be
INFECTED...F@CK F#CK F%CK. I was planning on "pacing"
myself....easing out of this slowly...but now I have people asking for
commitments from me. I swear - it's like they sense it or
something. It's like, I put my request out there - to the universe and I
did it with such conviction and now it has a life of its' own....like it has
its own unstoppable energy or something.
I may have to come clean to everyone alot sooner than I
wanted. scary
oy....
Mind Control : I'm starting to realize my mind has complete control
over me. The glimpses of peace while present, I felt so
significant, are really no larger than mustard seeds at this point. I am so
deeply CONDITIONED with trickery and fear and any iota of progress I make,
seems to be somehow felt by others around me, who only tighten their grip
more. Part of me is so damn terrified - terrified that I will never make
it out of here. I can't die here in this lie. I can't stop
crying...I can't sleep. I'm only trying to be present as much as I can
and hope to grow my courage......I feel so beaten down. I felt much
better before and awful now - my playlist is allover the place - this
truly does come in waves!! i don't see my own footprint today.
Still see the humor in it all --John, this is
some funny sht!!
A good invitation!!! and a wonderful assessment of what's going on... I
cordially invite you to speak with me about possible immersion scenarios and
various ways I might learn more about (how the fuck to live my life strategically - AND STILL ENJOY THE
WORLD with lusciousness as I navigate through galaxies of space with lots of
open centers, ride dreams that aren't actually mine, endure sporadic episodes
of clutching wildly at my chest to hold myself back as I try NOT to prove
myself to others who can't hear anything I'm saying anyway, overcome perpetual
restlessness and indecision, and float through afternoons of despair as I
recover from phase 7 of my spiritual crisis and await invitations from the
external realms that actually elicit a YES)...:)
However,
if this conversation is not correct for you at this time,
I certainly understand.
UK Projector's take and things your mind will never believe!! - Let's get straight
into it: For a projector; the more relaxed, comfortable you are,the more opportunities will come your way.
It's as if the universe abhors your attempts at being a generator/ manifestor
and so failure and loss plague the projector who tries to do anything other
than put their faith in the universe to bring everything to him. So, the less
you think about 'job/ work/ money etc'the more you relax, and just live/ 'be
in the now', the more invitations present themselves. Honestly!
