Continually
updated reports from Human Beings around the world who are
experimenting with their own aura mechanics and strategy through the
Human Design System. These are ongoing dialogues with many whom are finding their own truth through this information.
MG Beyond the Fear...On a
deep level i understand your journey. Human Design has changed my Life-Mind
Body Soul and Spirit. It's far from easy and on some level too easy! 4 years on
and the grief has eased, all that horrendous conditioning. I've shed the tears,
felt the pain, rocked like a baby. Fear of being and all alone in the
programme-my programme. Frightened, scared, desperate, suicidal...Feelings of
not belonging on this planet like im some Alien. Nobody
knows-friends, family, kids-they just think you've lost the plot. It
takes great courage and not for the faint hearted. I'm committed to the programme
100% I'll face my fears cos John will write soon and as i read your stuff i
know everything will be Okay...Thank you...-Catherine C., 6/2 MG, United Kingdom Amen...
Texas Projector - Hands Off The WHEEL!!!! I am doing well, feeling a bit like flotsam on the ocean,
feeling blown around and overwhelmed by the things that are becoming easier to
see and are almost "shown". I am also overwhelmed by the
perception of the depth of knowledge of human design-wow. I would, when
it is correct for you, like to see your take on a "key-note" poem of
my design. Just to share a little something of the current, and
recurrent, theme- is that growing depth of experience or perspective juxtaposed
with the simplicity of having nothing to do with the deepening of the
experience-"hands-off".
Good question? Good Lord John....wouldn't it be sooo much easier if we all
new which type the other was?! I had just had an exhasperating
situation w/ a Generator, who could not reach clarity or make a
decision...meandering, and going on and on and on......- So,
I remembered the "question" thing....I asked him to stop talking for
a minute and relax and try to respond instinctually, instead of
"thinking" it out......It was an art project, a plaque we were working on......so I asked him questions, and he responded....and seemed clear
after that! Problem solved.....Like it was suddenly a non-issue! DaYam. .....I'm just sayin...
A Manifestors Dilemma-I do want TOO Can you see how uncomfortable I am initiating?! This -
just another thing I am forced to face. It is very difficult for me to
ask for what I really want. Very very hard for me. I'm pretty
much starting to see, that if I really want something in my body....and I'm really
afraid of asking for / initiating it - that I pretty much HAVE TO DO IT
!!!! It doesn't matter what the outcome is so much - it
just MATTERS THAT I DO IT!!! With that said: I wish to ask you for a direction on
something: I have wanted, since my first reading in
2005 in fact, to study human design. Besides finding it completely
interesting and fascinating, I feel the information is so very important -
basis of everything. I know there are classes, books, etc., but I
just don't know where to start. I might as well do something between
sleeping and my head spinning around....I really want to do this, I don't know
why I'm so afraid of bringing it up....I'm so conditioned!!! ugh...I bet
this sounds really crazy to you but I think, this whole "fear" thing
- this is just how I'm wired......ON THE EDGE! LL
Intuitive Relapse I'm still very much learning how to trust my
authority. The mind overruling the spleen has become the biggest trial for me
now. The open centers don't feel like much of a problem compared to that, if I
were to describe it...but the mind is really clever and I don't even realize myself
doing it until later looking back - DOH!ARGH!UGH!I keep seeing how the mind got me again, how
I could have listened to the spleen which knew what to do...and those mistakes
are not minor, this is it, baby, one chance, but it's just so subtle, the level
of sensitivity required to catch the spleen...mmmm...god it seems so simple, why is
it so hard?Why does it still get me so
much of the time!I think seeing you
will be good for me, your frequency in the past has helped tune me up.
The Truth Hurts Being comfortable in my own process, with others in the
room, seems like no big deal, but it is. I've noticed that explaining to someone 'where' I am at in my process, may leave the other person a bit unsure of my sanity, which is a compliment to me, but just a heads up if anyone decides to
be truthful with who they are. lol :) -tg
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An Ego Being Wills Freedom-Further...tonight I
sat/am sitting with my undeniable desire for people who are bad for me.....I
think I understand the "in a hurry to feel better" thing now. This is a strong one in my body....great pressure from the middle and those
jolting jumps but this time they are accompanied by undeniable sadness and fear
and loneliness. my heart is pounding...listening to the heaven and
hell audio...you get these jumps too...and you mentioned the a word
(abandonment)....we seem to have common experiences....maybe it's a 6/2
reality or something. I have no idea what to do but to not listen
to the voice in my head and listen and be more "in" my body. everything else is just nothing nothing nothing...I can't imagine going thru
this around other people....but only the present moment matters for now I'll
deal with it when I deal with it and hope they will understand on some level. I know I'm
alone in this but it's still comforting that you listen anyway. I guess I am
using my will but i take it for granted i think. This really
blows man.......but further john
